Yet, the programming in my mind was so scrambled by then that it was difficult to differentiate between reality and fantasy.By the time I started seeing a gender therapist and a surgeon they were as convinced as I was that I was female.Since I was already on estrogen, the endocrinologist felt morally/ethically obligated to continue that same protocol and at least monitor it and prescribe it legally. ” The recently published WPATH Version VII has simply allowed the medical community to open the “floodgates” for this very tragedy to unfold. Maybe, maybe not, depending on your circumstances, occupation, etc. The psychiatrist, psychologists, and surgeons will enjoy a wonderful life.
For the next 15 years I was married and divorced twice.
The root of the failures I believe some bent up anger and feeling of inadequacy stemming from a childhood I had no control over.
By my late thirties, this feeling of a “feminine core” continued.
It led me to purchase online and experiment with Estrogen and an Anti-Androgen. I dieted and exercised feverishly and got my body down to an acceptable female weight. I remarried again in my early forties to a wonderful woman.
My childhood issues were jotted down by the therapists almost as if a side note. And that’s if you haven’t tried or committed suicide by then!
(A very common failure in approving surgery.) At no time did I tell my family, consider my career or even consider talking to the love of my life of my plans. All so you can become the girl you “think” you are inside and wanted to be!
This “sickness” and it is a sickness, consumes and takes over your life! Now my interest was finding out how to end my life. How long it takes you to come to this point is subjective; probably once the excitement wears off. You have destroyed everything in your path to get it done and no-one in the medical community will stop you. People, God or whatever you believe in made you in the correct gender. If you think differently, get real help; but, DON”T CHANGE IT. To say that this is “an all too typical story” is total BS.
from Gregory: I have tragically come to realize my story is fairly typical of most Mt F persons.
I was molested by my “trusting” grandfather at age 3, father was killed at age 5 and while my mother remarried; you could essentially say I grew up without a “father figure” or role model.